I UNDERSTAND

I understand, why I am lonely
I couldn't face my fear
I passed up every chance to love
When an opportunity came near
You see, I'm still the frightened child
Whose trust was plucked away
Still hiding in the darkness
Still wondering, if it's okay
I learned when I was much too young
To fear what touch can do
All in the name of love;
I survived the abuse I'd gone through
Oh, the torment of my feelings
When my heart and mind collide
My heart wants to take a chance
But my mind, just wants to hide
I don't know how to trust again
I'm too afraid to love
How can I know or understand
What true love is really made of