Idiotic infatuation

My infatuation has no fingers, it's pointless 
We could never hang out  because our schedules are jointless 
Not flexible at all. But even with time you wouldn't budge 
If these feelings are illegal I'm deemed guilty by the judge. 
For years the love has stuck like a tattoo, I'd chat to you if the subject weren't taboo, and if I do-
It's Russian roulette with 5 in the chamber 
With 1 chance of love there's 5 more of danger 
If you're a forbidden fruit I'll take the chance of dying 
If you accepted my offer, in joy I'd go flying 
I keep my hopes up, but to myself I'm lying 
Because each time I'm shut down for even trying 
I don't know how long I'll last going down this slippery slope 
Until I crash and burn upon hearing you answer "nope"
Is my destiny to sit around defeated and mope? 
I'm destined to be with you, well at least that's what I hope...