If It Helps...

Who am I to see
what a girl can be? 
I try so very hard, 
But I don't get far. 
I take the wrong turn, 
When will I learn? 
I'd have to die
To live my life right. 
Seeing the end of the road, 
Suddenly knowing where it goes... 
If it helps, I'll get help, 
If I don't have to yell. 
I tend to seek badness, 
Gotta stop living this madness. 
I'm stressed to the max, 
I can't get the facts. 
I need to get my shit together, 
I can't stand this hot weather. 
All the people see
What I'm doing to me. 
But I don't see what I'm doing to myself myself... 
if it helps, I'll get help. 

My mental state
Tries to lead me to fate. 
And I'm following it, righteously. 
Praying to it, spiritually. 
And I won't look now, 
And I pray somehow
That I will pass this test. 
Oh God, I'm such a mess... 

Even though I try to fight my demons, I strive in life. 
I can't seem to find my way, 
No matter how hard I try.