It’s just a bad day not a bad life

I don’t know what to do, I feel so confused
What is the big deal if I win or lose
I wander who would notice, I’d wander if I’d cared 
Self pity,  they will be happy, space to spare
Feeling a waste of space,  lonely inside
Wander if anyone hears you of a night when you cry
Not a strong person I feel I have lost 
Of the will to be happy and death was my cost
Love you all to pieces never meant to hurt 
Inside a stupid fight feeling like dirt 
Please don’t be sad as it was my choice 
Deep in my soul was  a screaming voice
Feeling horrible, frightened and bad inside,  not having any  dignity, will power or pride 
A time come journey to a place hopefully feeling happy with a smile my face