knowing ill never see you again

Knowing I'll never again hear your voice 
Knowing to leave was never your choice
Knowing you were in pain and didn't want to leave
Knowing it was harder, so much harder than it seemed
Knowing you kept a smile through all your pain
Knowing you would see a sunset after a stormy rain
Knowing you would pretend to e happy, keeping the faith 
Knowing you were dying, knowing your fate
Knowing through your fight you still put yourself last 
Knowing through the night you smiled at the past
Knowing you ached and pretend all was well
Knowing you tried to keep us safe, away from this hell 
Knowing what was going to happen after all your struggle and strength 
Knowing you was trying your best keeping your soul and strength
Knowing how much you have been through kills me everyday
But to know that you are my guardian angel I no I'll be okay