Letter to Myself

Do you kill yourself or kill the monster that's making you suicidal
Purge this demon before it consumes you with it's evil
Thoughts return, memories back from the dead
Consuming every ounce of you, pounding away at your head
The point of no return and the end's getting nearer
Convinced you're not scared of death  now your fears are becoming deeper
Embedded into your brain, becomes  a part of who you are
A part of your soul, even getting rid of it is your life's biggest goal
Don't know where to turn, feel like a stranger back at home
You've got no one by your side, fight this on your own
Past memories broke me down mentally
So who can i trust in a world full of enemies
Wake up every morning feeling mentally dead
Waiting for my physical to perish so i'll finally be at peace with myself
This is a letter to myself, please never give up
Had to get this off my chest so it won't cause a slip up
Just a reminder of what you've been through 
You're getting better now, see life through a clear view
Keep your head high and stay positive 
You'll soon meet someone who'll override all the negatives