Little Do You Know

I walk with a smile,
I laugh, I play,
But deep down I know,
I'm really not that way,

I say I'm over it,
Finally happy now,
You see my smile,
Think I've moved on somehow,

Little do you know, 
That smile isn't real,
It may look full,
But it doesn't quite match what I feel,

You say it's over,
I should celebrate,
Little do you know,
It's just a tad bit too late,

Do you stand in my shoes,
Or feel my pain,
If you did you'd wonder,
How I ever stayed sane,

I felt loss,
And I've felt betrayal,
It pierced me,
And ran me over like a train rail,

But deep down I know, 
It was all for a reason,
I've not forgotten,
But I sure have forgiven,

So here I am,
I say goodbye,
It didn't really hurt,
I say as a lie,

Cause deep down I know,
That isn't quite true,
But the pain you caused me,
Is only known to a few.