Little girl

Mother once told me to build a wall to keep everyone  out and now i shut everyone in the world out, too scared to get close to anyone, Too scared i might get hurt all over again,father once told me to not be weak to hide who i really am trying to live up to who i think i should be wanting the world to swallow me whole thinking about my past and how i fucked up like always trying to stop this pain that grows inside of me each day wanting to forget but its apart of who i am just gotta keep it in mind i will forever and always can only count on myself tried of being this weak little girl i once was but in reality here i am still in the shadows of the little girl i once was im not the same i have changed but either way i would alway be a mistake all along wondering if dreams do come true knowing my past will aways come back to haunt me mother once told me to not trust, never wanting to open up hiding everything from the outside slowly braking from the inside