LOST SOULS --: Blackpool beach while elephants from the tower zoo had their morning walk--3 days after my fiance had committed suicide -

standing by the ocean watching every word
perhaps the ocean is watching me
footprints over so many years all stolen by the view
plastic bobbing corpses echo another life
organic crucifix surfboarding ride
a beaten sky throws the cloud some memory in disguise
 
who am i 
I can hear myself scream
pieces of a drawing a nightmare in a dream
sand flows from the wounds I let you rest in
could I destroy that knocking on the door
silence the turning head
and carry another stormy wave
 
Romantic smooth melting kiss
the smell of musk drifting along the chained reason
an escape -and I left on a sodden rainy beach
speaking in some mixed meaning-
while a bizarre scene unfolds me spreading tears
 three elephants from an indoor zoo strode strongly
 each pebble-strewn interlude,
always at the very ocean edge-never inland
im just waiting for the tide to return