Medicinal affair
Through its fog you try to remember when it began
At what point did I allow it complete control
Rendered helpless your will has been overran
Corrupting what you were.... mind, body and soul
Take two as needed just to dull the pain
A cruel mystery, the cause can't always be found
Unaware your life's spiraling down the drain
Your humanity's in a desperate battleground
With passing time it's comfort seems to fade
Unless the dose is multiplied and taken more
Still unaware that you've been outplayed
To these controlling demons your losing the war
Quietly hiding shame so that no one becomes aware
You look to the sky for any sign of direction
Give me a solution to this medicinal affair
As I'm now disgusted with my own reflection
It's not just my own health and wellbeing I've destroyed
I've lost too much time with the ones I love most
All the things we should have enjoyed
A shell of myself, to this parasite a host
Although my broken will gave you your power
I despise what you've forced me to become
Continually at your mercy, forced to cower
I vow to no longer be held under your thumb
Time is up, The fogs lifted I see your true form
A wrong choice, an empty promise and false hope
I will break your hold and to others I'll inform
To warn all of your menacing tightrope
To all who suffer from chronic pain beware
It's sinister grip isn't biased anyone could be prey
So if you must enter the monsters lair
I pray you too don't lose the war someday
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Hello Matt...
I have friends who are in pain all the time and they are on so much medication...
I always hope that someone can come up with a cure so they wouldn't need so much medicine to be able to function...
Great write!
Great message!
Thank you for sharing...
Hugs...
sparrowsong
I honestly can't thank you enough for your supportive comments. I've been ashamed for so long I don't remember what it feels like to be "normal " I'm fighting to end it
Hello Matt...
I don't know what the source of your pain is...
It's not your fault if the right remedy hasn't been found...
It isn't your fault if the medication has the ability to be addictive either...
I know it's frustrating and no one wants to be in pain for a minute...
Constant definitely not...
I know with the way things have gotten, to try to find another Doctor for help they think your medicine shopping...
If only they understood that people want to stop hurting so they don't need medicine and then it should be part of the plan to help addiction that was caused by meds in the first place...
A lot of my friends lives have been messed up because of wrong diagnosis and being treated like a guinea pig...
Some are in jail, because they seeked other help from the streets...
Some are in rehab because they were given a choice of rehab or jail and still no solution to their problem...
Hugs...
sparrowsong
-the only way to lse the war is to stop fighting. I implore. You cannot give up, chronic pain I too have. Some days good and some days bad. It's on the good days this you should reflect and remember... please remember do not neglect. Do not regret what life has set forth for you. Do not regret the pain or family too.
Do not hide for fear of being seen.
I have some issues too and often wish to remain unseen.
Hugs Matt.
AWESOME WORK.
♡M
Hello Matt.
I can understand and totally relate to everything you have written here. Never be ashamed. I use to be ashamed all the time. "What happens if I have a relapse what will ppl think? What if I stumble and grab my head what will they think? What if I walk in to walls.? " and so on.
I still get embarrassed when I go out but you do what you can when you can.
Powerful writ
♡M
I never thought I would ever see another poem from you.