Moving On

Each day was a struggle,
Never caring unless,
We were in trouble,
Each day with him,
Not being able to spend alone time,
I felt like he was crowding me day in and out,
Feeling so happy while feeling like ripping his head off,
He was demanding,
I felt trapped,
I must move on,
Try to pretend,
Pretend like nothing happened,
Trying to fix things made it worse,
I regret trying to fix things,
We split once or twice,
Getting back together was a mistake,
Further pain was caused,
At least I can walk away with something,
Knowledge that I should never date anyone like that ever again,
Being together or not,
Seemed more important to him,
Fixing things seemed to be at the bottom of the list,
Although it must be a relief for Mum and Dad,
Dad didnt like him,
Mum tried to pretend but I was never convinced,
She tried to keep the peace,
It worked for awhile but not for long,
He keeps trying to contact me,
I don't want to talk to him,
It makes everything just harder,
I wanna kill him,
My emotions are running high and crazy,
I thought after everything,
I thought he would change,
I now see that he will never change,
I felt like I was trying to fix things alone,
Now that everything is over,
He is concerned and wants me,
I want to escape and move on,
But he wont let me go,
He keeps asking to talk to me,
Texting me and coming to talk to me,
I say the same thing,
Its over,
Please delete my number,
Leave me alone,
Let me move on,
He is making this so much harder,
Please let me go,
This is to you and not for you.