My darkest day

My smile is generic
My thoughts are all the same
I try to live the best I can
Kicking ass and taking names
But nobody understands me
And the hurt I hold inside
I've found the joy of cutting myself
To check if I'm alive
My blood is running warm
Down my wrist into the floor
As I drift off into blackness
I don't feel pain anymore
I feel that suicide
Is my only way to escape
The feelings and pain I'm dealing with
It's my one true call to fate
I take a look around
And see nobody by my side
Nobody in front or behind me
And nobody left or right
So as I sit here 
I realize that I'm alone
Nobody that really wants me
And no place that I call home
I watch the shows on TV
And I see the way they feel
I can empathize with these people
And why suicide is real
Wether on purpose or be it an accident
The truth is always there
Suicide happens 
Because nobody cares
I've been beaten up
And been knocked down to my lowest
I've gotten on my own last nerve
I'm tired of being nervous
So if nobody really wants me around
Then make their wish true I shall
I'm writing to let you all know
That this is my farewell
If you ever chose to walk away from me
With a tear you didn't shed
Don't cry about me now
It's your fault that I'm dead
You caused the pain
That I could no longer bare
This is your fault
Wanna cry? 
Don't you  fucking dare
For so long I longed for love 
And just a tiny bit of affection
So if I ever gave you my heart
Then you caused the rabid infection
It spread through my blood
From the bite marks that you made
It took away my feelings
And it took away my pain
So if I ever said I love you 
Know I meant then and now
But you don't feel the same damn way
So I'm taking my last bow
Chalk this one up to you
And your fucking little grin
I'm bowing out from the race 
That's it, I quit, you win
There's a puddle now next to me
And everything is getting dark
I never thought that loving someone
Could be this god damn hard
But it made me feel happy
If only for a second
But the sadness has taken over
And I'm not able to face it
I'm sorry for those of you
That I have let down in the past
the last moments of my life are here
Damn that went by fast
So with this I finish up
And I say good bye to and yours 
Remember all my greatness
And may my soul live through my words
Make sure my boys are happy 
Let them know it's not their fault
I was lost before they came along
But I just could not stand the hurt
So goodbye to all my family 
And my closest friends to
If there even is any
I say goodbye and I love you
- DARKMINDS