My Emotions

Falling behind in my grades,
as my mind slowly fades.
Life is hard,
and in my hand I deal no cards.
Drowning in self doubt,
as my darkest thoughts seep out.
Feeling lost, hope to be found,
as my demons scream out loud.
Uncertain and without trust,
feeling like I’ll bust.
Trying hard to do my best,
trying hard to past every test.
Grades drop,
wish my emotions would stop.
Everything would be better,
if my mom read a letter,
saying I was gone,
and that she move on.
I’m just a burden to everyone I see,
I feel both mine and their life with misery.
Why must I try so hard to be good,
when I'm never understood?
My life feels full of pain,
and like I’m going insane.