My toxic trait

            My toxic trait is loving and wanting people who don't even want me. I think its because at one point everything used to be so great and I want to go back on what made me feel good. I hate reality, it hurts too much. I'm the type of person to run away from their problems, but I'm broke and I can't  afford to cry in Dubai with a louis vuitton hand bag. I hope that one day i'll be able to understand WHY ME. Maybe my stupid soulmate is stuck in a tree waiting for his damn princess to come save him. Sorry baby I'm too busy giving a fuck.
           I'm tired of tiktok videos telling me he's coming back, because when he does? I just continue to go through tower moment after tower moment. I dont have many friends, so i'll just pretend. "She popped a plan B after we did it", that line still haunts me. Thanks for sharing, it hurt. She's a tic tac. One day you'll wake up and miss me, but I wont miss you. One day everything will stop hurting and then? the tables will turn.
By God, I swear I'm not perfect and mostly because you pointed it out several times...thanks.
I held on to you so tight the rope started to rip and suddenly become a noose that became a neck/lace. 
Why the fuck do I still get the pleasure to see you? Why do I jump so quick to text you back when I know you have the whole cheerleading squad in the back of your phone burner?
No, I dont hate you....I  dont hate people.
One day you'll hate yourself for doing what you did to me.
I wont be you're back up cheerleader.
" GO TIC TAC GO TIC TAC !!"
lets cheer.