Nieces and Nephews now Sons and Daughters

The doctor told me I couldn’t have kids because something with my ovaries and hormones not working right, 
I remember crying about it many sleepless nights,
I know they say just try, 
But what if I have a miscarriage then I’d say why? 
Why give a kid hopes when I’m not sure my body can support the baby enough to survive,
A child’s love is like no other 
The unconditional love for their parents that they smother, 
Here I am 17 still crying about it 
Yet I have these miracles they call me auntie, 
Not nieces or nephews,
I call them my daughters and sons,
I know I’m not their biological parent but I’m related to one, 
Those smiles they give you when they see you walk through the door, or the way they laugh when you’re playing with cars on the floor, 
The way they look at you 
The way they they jump in your arms to hug you hello, 
And the way that they block the door so that you don’t say goodbye,
The way they smile at you when you pick them up give them a kiss on the forehead and tell them everything’s gonna be alright, 
The love you feel when they grab your hand is like an angel showing me what path to take, 
Telling me they support me no matter the decision I make,
This isn’t what I planned but I’m glad you are here with me! 
Auntie loves you and just know you’ll always have me
Give me a holla and wherever you are is where I’ll be, 
When your mom and father can’t be there I promise I’ll be there , 
Babies auntie will always be right here, 
One day I may be miles away ,
but I swear if y’all need me I’ll jump on a plane and be on my way,
Unconditional love is my best I can give you,
Until I can afford all the best things in the world than I’ll give all that to you.