Nobody knows

Letting you go hasn’t been easy but fuck I’m just so good at hiding it. I hold on because I don’t want to let go..I hold on because I still can’t imagine myself without you. I feel so greedy and selfish because I’m hurting me. 

Your not good for me but for some reason I still see all the good in the bad. Nobody knows how I feel..nobody.

But are u happy? How’s your mom? Did you eat today? Why did u have to be this way?! Why couldn’t you be for ME?! WHY?!

The water runs heavy in the tub and the steam fogs up the bathroom...I can’t breathe. Letting you go hasn’t been easy but you seem so good at it.

I cried in somebody else’s arms trying to explain to them how you easily slept with other people like it was nothing. 

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Just said, “ Are they better? Am I fat? What makes them so great that I’m not WORTHY!!!!!!” 

Letting you go hasn’t been easy but fuck I’m just so good at hiding it. I hold on because I don’t want to let go..I hold on because I still can’t imagine myself without you. I feel so greedy and selfish.

Loving you had Consequences.
I’m Fucked up & Nobody Knows.