Non Apologetic

You hurt me, I stupidly forgave 
Never an apology for the mistakes 
You had made
Never accepting that you did wrong 
I was your daughter only I felt like
I didn’t really belong
I didn’t have the feeling of love in my heart
I just had a feeling that some day 
You would again pull my soul apart
I got used to your constant hate.

I was a bitch, disgusting, unworthy
I was praying to god
Only he never actually heard me 
Praying that some day you would care
Maybe we’d have at least one good memory to share
I might have been the daughter you wanted me to be

Only I made my life with out you there
I made all my decisions by myself
I had my dad by my side if I ever needed help
Others say “ I couldn’t live without my mum”
Only in my case I can and I did
My heart may never be fully repaired
I wish I had a mother who truly cared.