Not your fault

Make my blood boil
Yet make my anger silent 
Make me quiet, but with a drunkenness words violent
Take it out on others not to blame
Fuming at the world, drinking to drown the shame 
Your fault but that’s not easily said and done
Because after while a voice silenced isn’t won
Lose people you love in the process to win
What are we winning, it’s already done, your sin
I hope you can not sleep at night 
I don’t want to live bitter, but I despise you, your shite