Pen

I put the pen to paper, see u later,
I'll see u in another life coz tonight I'm seeking jesus for a favour,
seeing demons on a caper, but the paper ain't even a motivator, 
I need an explanation,
I need to rest I'm wasted,
i can feel my chest is breakin, 
my pain is too fucking heavy it's in my heart and bangin,
I won't be in the dark and praying, I'll be in the past and changin, waitin for the future so i see what your portraying,
In my heart i hold it all together,
a soldier in the ocean shows cold shoulders to stormy weather,
i hold boulders and tread waves to vent pain,
But when i only stare at the sea it feels like a x-game,
i protect my flame with treacherous waves, i dont expect u to get what I'm saying, just listin 'n' pray that maybe one day everything will change and we'll be ok,