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Pain That You Can’t Comprehend
Or Understand Because Pain
Pain Is A Complicated Subject 

I Say Subject And Not Topic 
Because To Say Topic Is Like 
Underestimating The Word Pain

Pain You Can Feel In Many Ways
You Took A Look In My Life 
So You Know I Own It 
This Blood Flowing In My Body

Keep Me Sane And In Pain
Alive Means Pain
So As Long As I’m Alive I’m In Pain
Pain That’s Invisible To The Eye
But Seeable To The Mind
Inside Is A Great Fear I Hide
A Fear That Makes You Cry

When You Would Lie To My Face
As If I Wasn’t A Human Being 
With A Human Spirit That Has 
FEELINGS, FEELINGS, FEELINGS

That You Dread To Your Care For
Because You’re Scared, A Scared, 
Broken, Abused, Toxic, Deceitful
Human Being Who Has No Spirit 

My Apologies I Never Meant To    ATTACK YOUR SPIRIT 
I’m Still Recovering From Pain
I Don’t Want To Be The One
The One Who Turn You Insane

I Don’t Want To Be The Love
The Love You Crave And Hate
I Don’t Want You To Ever Feel Pain
The Pain You Caused Me 

Only I Can Help
It’s Really Killing My Health
I Told Myself Not To Run
But I Still Was The One To Run
I’m Embarrassed With Myself 

Nothing Can Keep Away Pain
I’m On Edge Of Being Insane
I Know I Can Control It

 Your Touch Felt Safe
Your Kiss Was Welcoming 
Your Eyes Caught My Fall 
Your Lies Were Forgivable 

You Could Do No Wrong
In My EYES, In My EYES
Your LIES, Your LIES,
They Were Acceptable 
 Your Worth Wasn’t High

So I Denied The Actualities
Of Your Actions, Your Actions
That Lead Us Till This Day
PAIN IS MY NAME
AND WHEN I SEE YOU 
I WANT TO INFLICT PAIN.