Shut off

A special wish,
a concealed dream,​
I'll never tell,
you'll never ask,
you shouldn't care,
you're not mine,
you never can be,
not a dream,
not even a hope of this,
just a damsel in distress,
a life that can never be mine,
a dream,
a wish,
a nothing.
I am the girl,
the lost one,
the one who can't smile,
but always does,
pretending,
just wishing,
living a lie,
the happy little girl,
keep it quick,
push them all away,
hide behind myself,
slip away,
never hold on,
never trust,
just me,
never anyone else,
just me.
Can't let them in,
gotta keep them out,
breath in slow,
insult them,
move away from them,
dream of something good,
that you never let happen,
keep  it simple,
keep it alone.
Just me,
just safe,
just alone,
just lost,
just broken,
loneliness does that.
Keep your heart closed,
Keep it safe.