Spark in the dark

It’s easy for me to light up a spark 
in someone else’s night
but I myself will keep being in the dark,
because I can’t just win this fight. 

I sometimes wonder if it’s ever gonna get lighter 
or if the chains I put on myself will become even tighter? 

will I ever sincerely be in peace with my mind, 
because I just want to leave all of this behind
and for a change start being kind. 

Kind to myself of course,
because i’m done with living in remorse.