Suicide

I cant keep going on like this, my life is ruined and i can no longer hide these feelings that are bottled up inside, at night i lay awake and cry, and think of the best way to say goodbye , i try so hard and im right back where i begun, struggling and depressed with nothing, i want my life to end, so i know have to pretend, that i'm happy when im slowly dying, this is what i get for trying , when i leave this earth i'll be at peace, even though i'm dead i'll still somehow breathe, all i want is to escape this madness inside my head. Feel worth it feel im something my family is proud of, this road has been broken for to long, i just want God to call me home, so i can be with the ones i have lost, this life was a journey and look at what it cost.