The Enemy

I sit all alone at the edge of my bed 
And talk to the demon inside of my head
The demon is human not scaly or red 
He shows me my failings leaves nothing unsaid 
He tells me so sadly, “You’re better off dead

You haven’t lived life to the fullest extent 
If spirit was money your soul would be spent 
The purest of things you will always resent 
No matter how blessed, you are never content 
You’re much far to evil to simply repent 
Your pathway untrodden is needlessly bent" 

Out my mind he leaps 
From black soul he seeps
Wide-eyed and forsaking 
His name Peter Blaklene
With eyes like a fire 
And hands that conspire 
He comes not alone 
but with cloaked man of bone 
They both try to take me 
so as to remake me 
Turn me to a monster 
A human imposter 
Half robot half devil 
With head like a bevel 
To look what’s around
And chase every sound 
The clank of the earth 
In purposeless worth 
The sights that will blind me 
With lies that will bind me 
There’s lusts that will swallow 
Turn insides all hollow 
And once they take hold 
My soul will be sold 
To bone man and demon 
Nothing to believe in 
Dragged up to a ledge 
Cast off of the edge 
An eternal hole 
To swallow my soul 
Forever I’m falling 
There’s no time for stalling 
Peter, has one calling 
My life is for mauling 

I take a breath and turn around 
My feet are held by gravity 
I still have life there still is sound 
My heart feels my depravity 
The man of bone his name is death 
His job is taking souls 
A living smile, undead his breath 
Red eyes like burning coals
He looks at me, I look at him 
He says “your time has come”
I take a breath and split a grin 
Then laugh “you must be dumb”
“One day I’ll go with you away 
But not right now my friend 
I still have life so here I stay 
Today is not my end”

Who do I blame for my misdeeds?
Who gets the shame for my missed pleads? 
Do cries of rejection 
Find place of protection? 
My free will has saved me 
My God he has braved me 
Grace offered to helpless 
Is leaving me breathless 
The man Death has left me 
My life has been messy 
But it has been paid for 
Salvation is my door

And there sits the devil 
Alone 
He’s out of my head 
Perhaps he’ll be back 
But for the time being 
I’ll just keep on breathing 
And who knows what’s next. 
A blip from a text
Awakens my sleep 
Who’s knows what I’ll keep
Who knows what will stay 
Wait, please,
Don’t go away