The Feeling of Betrayal

It was too early for the sun to kiss the sky
Too late for the moon to say goodbye
I looked at a picture of you and cried
I thought about all the memories
Like glass you shattered my heart
 
My little strings of happiness, you all cut loose
You drowned my dreams in hatred
Even at night the lone dove cries
Even the best man someday dies
 
At a point in time all was fine
Until the day you walked the line
Story goes you were grown a criminal
You were always sentenced the minimal
All this time you were a snake
 
I looked at the date the other day
The restraining won’t work anyway
You’ll walk out that gate
Making me believe I’ve met my fate
 
These walls seem to talk to me
My best friends are the demons in my head
I hide under sheets in my bed
 
You had so long to prove you cared
You had so long to get prepared
Till that one Christmas Eve
An event no one will believe
Till the world and time stood still
You had the power to kill
You broke my heart that day
You can’t fix it, no matter what you say
 
I watched a monster that night
The battle I didn’t want to fight
You can say I lost the battle but I will win this war
My family’s safety is what I live for
 
Even now as we prepare
The paranoia is setting in
I’m losing my sense of reality
I’m falling victim to insanity
 
I’m not one to explain how I feel
I make these writings all too real
My words are my voice
They will carry on when I have a chance
 
You tried to knock me down
All the lies you told the whole town
Paints a picture of a worthless teen
I succeeded in making you look like a clown
 
As waves crash onto rocks
As the flowers grow
We loved you so
Until the flowers turned into weeds
Loving you became an awful deed
 
I remember being told I have a gift
I remember telling you with hope in my eyes
You tried to knock me down with lies
You didn’t want me to succeed past you
I out did you, twice over too
 
You began to hate me
I felt like a lone cat stuck in the rain
All I’ve ever felt was pain
I was being taught that I was worthless
That I was terrible
My life became unbearable
 
I did nothing bad
I didn’t do what you had
You became nothing to me
I just wanted you to let me be
 
But, please tell me why
I believed the lie
You were ashamed of me
I remember coming to you
Straight A’s and a letter of recognition too
You ignored me and turned me away
Everything changed for me that day
 
Now you’re just left to rot
Not even a penny to your name is all you got
Watching the clock tick away
Waiting for the day
You get to walk out the gate
Little do you know you’re too late
 
I’ve lived these days a million times before
I remember you walking out the door
 
No one knows of my heart break
Everything happened far too late
I see him in everything I do
I know I still love him too
 
But, that day is over and gone away
For tomorrow is another day
I will be carried on in spirit and words
I will prove you wrong
For you may have knocked me down
But you didn’t knock me out