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The Greatest weapon

The Greatest weapon

Were you fooled by the perennial smile
and bonhomie?
His living  presence hiding deep despair,
silently borne and inwardly grown.
Swarmed by dark lonely thoughts
and a tornado of self doubt.
The social perfectionism now too great
for him to  just shy away from.
Who’s watching over him?
Just a boy….hardly a man.
Yet the chains of life drag heavily on him.
It’s not that he wants to die,
but rather that he no longer wants to live.
Sometimes we  need to see the darkness
before appreciating the light…
Turn that light on!
Don’t deny your worries and believe
it wouldn’t happen..
The Gender Parodox  screams, that often
girls think about it,
but boys do it……
Speak up darling boys
You yourselves are the greatest danger you face
Before the deathly silence …speak out! Seek out!
Loving ears ready to listen.
Willing arms ready to hold,
hold until the stumble in the road is past
and the journey can continue,
and hope becomes the greatest weapon  against your
dark……..

Authors note; resubmitting this on World Suicide Prevention day sadly the leading cause of death in young men Samaritans UK number 116 123    USA  (1-800 Suicide)   1-800-784-2433

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

HI Lodigiana...I think men suffer in silence more than women...from their pride....and do not want to let anyone down with their stoic stance of handling pain on their own.  The line about not so much wanting to die than not wanting to live, is an accurate portrayal.  They lack hope....and just a little bit of that light could save them ...If only we all could recognize the pain before it is too late....Great awareness write of that sad reality of how prevalent suicide has become.  Great work. xo  

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lodigiana

Thanks so much  Cherie, It is a huge sadness to me  to think of those lives sometimes needlessly lost ..as we hear so often suicide is a permanent  answer to a temporary problem. My son is a journalist and one of the campaigns he has successfully been spearheading is to make the Government look at and acknowledge  and record the number of suicides amongst our young Military recruits and this has proved successful  and  accepted by Government.  Lodigiana xx 

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Gerard McGowan

This is hard hitting Lodigiana, i recently met a young man who arrived at the job site to start his apprenticeship as an electrician, he was in his early 20s with a young child of his own. While working together he began to share with me some horrible stories regarding his family, a cousin of his had hung himself in the basketball court of his school on a Sunday afternoon and because of that, his cousins best friend killed himself not long after, it turns out they were being builled in school and on social media. I felt that this young man needed to talk so I just listened and I tried my best to be there for him, I'm not sure what he is doing now, I hope he is ok. I'm sure there are stories like this all over the world and It hurts me everyday to think that someone out there is contemplating suicide.

I have noticed a surge of poetry on this site with a suicidal tone, I don't know what to say so I just quote the usual line, the permanent solution/temporary problem line, I heard it myself years ago when i rang a helpline here in Ireland, I was feeling depressed and anxious and in fairness, it did work, the more I thought about it, the more it made sense.

I'm lucky to have you Lodigiana, to share my pain with, all of you on Cosmo.

Thank you X.

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lodigiana

As we move through life  we see and hear so much that can be upsetting..I hope that the young man you met  found something that resonated within him whilst you listened and that he was able to move forward with his life despite his harrowing family experience. My  father in law took his own life and no one suspected a single thing..he was ex Military and I guess kept things like 'feelings' to himself..I  also was a Samaritan for   atime but present times are quite different..Social media and Networking sites whilst  a means of maintaining friendships are also an insidious way of  blindly bullying . Like you I have noticed an increase in tendencies towards suicide which fills me with such sadness..You know that if things feel too heavy  or you just need to 'vent' that  can always find willing ears here on Cosmo . Thank you so much for reading and your insightful comments  Gerard and peace and happiness to you always. Lodigiana x 

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A Lonely Journey

Loki, my Grammy, 
What a wonderful poem!! Oh my gosh, so relate-able! Oh my gosh, those lines: 
'Yet the chains of life drag heavily on him.
It’s not that he wants to die,
but rather that he no longer wants to live.
Sometimes we  need to see the darkness
before appreciating the light…'

I can sooooo relate to! But, sometimes when you get that low, God does shine a light, and you realize He's there. 
Wow, Grammy, that really hit home. 
Thank you for that beautiful poem!! 

Love, 
Gramson Matthew. 

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lodigiana

This is a poem I wrote a while back  but decided to resubmit it ,as, to be honest, if there is anything that can be done to help anyone who is standing on that brinkpoint then  maybe it might  be of help.Life is too precious to give it up for something that could possibly  be overcome by sharing it with others.I am so pleased that if you have ever felt at a  low point in your life that somehow you found the positive caring that helped  you turn that corner and find a wonderful path to a happier life..Always stay as great as you are my lovely Honorary grandson! 
Love  Grammy xx

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