The Other Side

It ended there, in murky depths;
I followed bright white light,
On the way I saw my life
flash before my eyes.
Every smile and every touch
I smiled and felt again,
If only I could say goodbye,
I wouldn't feel so scared. 
I thought I heard you speak my name; 
I tried to come to you.
But when I reached from where it came,
my being was born anew.
Just one second was all it took
for me to break apart.   
I drowned again in painless pain,
willing memories to depart.
Perhaps if I was luckier,
this would have been the case.
But I remember every inch of life
just as vivid as your face.
People say 'I'm coming home',
to me this isn't true,
For how could I be coming home,
If I'm not there with you?
It's often that I hear you call,
'If you're here, show me a sign'!
But though you cannot see me,
I am with you all the time.
You like to think you dreamed I'm gone;
I hear your every thought.
You won't accept; you can't accept
that my life has been cut short.
I stroke you like a patterned paper,
I curl into your shape,
and all the while you're wishing
you could look upon my face.
One day we'll be together -
Just as we were before.
Until that time I'll linger here 
and love you more and more.
I always did believe that death
would truly set me free. 
That all the pain I felt in life
would wash away from me.
Perhaps that would be true,
if only I could let you go.
But everything I know now,
is different from before.
I hope I don't stay in this hell
Where I can't feel your touch.
Where I get to see you every day,
yet miss you so so much.
I have an aching feeling
that there's more to death than this. 
But I'll never leave to go there,
until there's nothing left to miss.

See you on the other side.