The Punch of My Life

Stop crying, I only gave you a slap
Clean the house and have dinner ready for when I get back
Only a slap he said, so why does my head hurt so much
My body is full of bruises and my lip hurts to touch

He said it was my fault, my big mouth he blamed
But I dare not ever raise my voice or complain
Once, he held me down and spat in my face
He said I was an embarrassment, as a woman a disgrace

I did laundry and housework every day
"Woman's work"  he used to say
He was a bouncer working weekends on the door
He never gave me any money, but still asked me for more

I had to please him, whatever it may be
If I didn't, he would loose his temper with me
usually he punched, but sometimes he chocked
I remember gasping as his grip tightened around my throat

Not knowing if I was alive or even dead
Did not stop him taking me to his bed
Go down on me bitch,  your my wife
I obliged, afraid for my life

Whenever I cried it annoyed him for sure
He would smile as he called me a fucking whore
Forcing me made him feel good
I once asked him why, he said "it was because he could"

I was too afraid to stand up and fight
I was a mess, a sad pathetic sight
I was alone, living each day in fear
Try to leave you will die, he whispered in my ear

I had no-where to run or hide
To those who loved me I had lied
Hiding my bruises so they would not know
If I told, they would burn, he told me so

There was no sympathy from his mother
They did not see anything said his brothers
They thought it was ok to "slap the wife"
Show them who the boss was in married life

My loneliness was something I am unable to describe
I had lost my self respect, would I ever again have pride?
Often I would pray he would find someone new
Let someone else have his love, so true!

The day I prayed for finally came
but instead of leaving he said I was to blame
It was 2 more years before |I was finally free
Because he wanted us both, his lover and me

Then he had refused to return my Son
He said "I'll tell everyone your an unfit mum"
If I didn't like it, that was just tough
It was that moment when I had taken enough

It felt amazing, the "punch of my life"
My thank you to him for being his wife
Gone went my fears and done were my tears as my life changed that day
Wave goodbye to Daddy I said, as my Son and I walked away 

I know I will never again feel like a woman should
Feeling so much hurt does you no good
Could I ever trust again?
Or will every man I meet have to take the blame!

After living 12 years of hell
It was many more before I was able to tell
Now I am the bouncer working on the doors
Single, but happy and not afraid any more