The Screaming Soul

I awake like a newborn
With eyes closed, wanting not to see
The failures of my past
And what lays ahead, I mourn for
In the upright and lifting
Lost atop the insentience of trees
Still there's grace to this sorrow
In reserve of a dream
As the cherub turns and tunnel shuts 
Its last light on me

​​​​​​Kept grains of graven stones I've cast
To weigh upon my heart to sink
While ripples repel, renouncing it all 
And the current flows, but I stay still
For what I see, I've seen before
In warped reflections, you shed yourself
Of thoughts dissolving me
And no more will I fall in vain
Against the lurid glass, I vow to change
All until remorse runs cold
And there within, temptation holds
The extrovert, the saboteur
The one who can't be saved

So let clouds rain for postponement
And bury the sun beneath its drought to drain
I'll sleep above it when I feel it rising
Holding the heavens
As though here forever I must remain
It's my only hope and votive
If I am to revert my volition
And clear the briars from the path I'd chosen
But can you hear my soul scream
Through the silence of my dying dreams
As I continually tremble, internally tear
At the thought of what keeps me captive from my soul
May extinguish the light to leave me alone
Always to wander this perfidious night
A ghost in a dream, in a future that's mine
Where patience slips at the hands of fear
And all errors lead to oblivion
I was blinded from you, as you disappeared
And into darkness I was gone

Who'll then build upon my bones engraved
When the walls that absorb my spirit, rage
Bellowing still for what is no more
But the echo of memories
Through the peel of remorse
And before my spirit ascends, I'll see
The other side, where she awaited me
Above the mountains, across the sea
At the shore I'll linger
Where I was meant to be