"This Light"

"Nothing ever happened,
while in the grips of addiction,
except for my decay,
that became aggressive,
when the pain,
wouldn't go away.

So I left my body,
I left my mind,
until everything went black,
until I went blind,
and I did it again the next day,
which was always the next time.

I was only masking symptoms,
while I tried to suture my heart,
that had regrettably,
fell out of me,
and completely fallen apart.

Eventually my despair,
turned into boiling rage,
and the evil side of me,
put the good side,
in it's cage,
It said,
'I will show them something.
The ones who hurt you,
will pay.
They will learn,
such a valuable lesson,
and everything will be okay.
Stay safe inside,
don't come out,
hide.
They'll soon realize,
they shouldn't have lied.'

So I stayed in,
while the darker me,
reveled in sin.
I did this for 15 years,
and it,
not once,
stopped a single tear.

When I had my stroke,
that's when I awoke,
and found my purpose,
in what God spoke.

'My child,
oh child,
how the evil almost won,
but let that settle in the past.
Your journey's just begun.
Focus now on what I say,
for I am here with you,
and I prepare A Way,
and I am not lying,
when I say everything's okay.

Now my son,
hold out your hands,
I give you now This Light.
Grab hold of it,
for it is Me,
and shall stay,
The Armies of the Night,
and tell of it,
to your addict,
sisters and brothers,
that have fallen.
Help me reach the good in them,
for it is to that I'm calling.
Some shall settle in the dirt,
never seeking me,
to stop the hurt,
but that doesn't mean,
with all you shouldn't try,
because you have,
such strength in you,
that should never be denied,
Tell them of your struggles,
for some they share with you.
Just imagine,
how many will be saved,
all because of you.'"