Timeless

Goodbye, will i see you soon?
It's been so long and i feel so gloom.
I can't make out the pictures on the wall.
I'm not sure what they mean at all.
Life is spinning Way to fast.
I'm not sure how to make it last.
It seem I cant find a decent pace
I really don't know if homes a place.
When did laughter turn into misery?
When did i loose the happiness inside of me.
When did months turn into years?
When did good times turn into fears?
Do you know me because I do not?
Where am I? I think I'm lost.
When did sunny skies become so grey?
When did you forget to stay?
When did I forget you?
When did lies become so true? 
When did I learn to erase the past?
How did I know nothing ever lasts?
When did I start regretting so many things?
When did I  loose those big white wings?
Why did I choose so many wrongs paths?
When did darkness turn into laughs?
When did I stop smiling and when did I stop crying?
Was it when i got lost or started lying?
Will I ever truly know,
is this hell or is this home?