Understanding me

I want to be noticed but not too much you noticed me but you shouldn't have noticed me that way I was pure sweet an innocent you took my purity away from me the second your grazed my arm the way you did you took all of me now I dont even know how to give my all anymore I dont blame you I blame me for what happened now even tho I was so innocent I still knew something in me told me to just leave the room but it was too late you already had me wrapped up in your arms pinning me I tried screaming but nothing came out I laid their crying waiting for it to end when it was all said an done I was afraid scared for anyone to notice me too much I push anyone away who notices me in that way i make them notice me how I want them to... Why cant I just let people see me for the pure innocent child I am I hope one day I can let you,somebody anybody notice me how you want me to be...