Wait

Wait. Wait. Wait.
It's far too late
Lost on a path of my own design
Wandering aimlessly for a sign
Delivered by the heart of my soulmate
Wait for it. Wait.
Even though it's far too late

I can not turn back
Because there is something I still lack
The soul of the only person I can see
There are so many others in this sea
But there's not one nearly as great
So wait.

And rust
To dust
To bone
Til I'm finally all alone
In my mind where these demons crawl
Bouncing from wall to wall
Grasping at the tendrils of my fate
But I must wait.

I know in my heart
That I'm the one who tore myself apart
Allowed my dark thoughts to command
To be in charge of my hand
In charge of my soul
So I lost sight of my only goal
For the 1000th time I'll ask myself. Wait
Though I know, it's far, far too late

Down this trail I stumble
My head in a jumble
My heart twisted at perplexing thoughts
In an attempt to connect all the dots
I refuse to falter
So I pray to a holy altar
That I may stand with her at the Gate
But for that especially, it's far too late
Yet at those bars I'll wait.

There's nothing but fading grief
Inside I know I am a thief
Of happiness like a leech
Even though such joy is beyond my reach
The night skies
Illuminate the darkest lies
I will let the stars create
While I slowly wait.

Into the dark abyss I fall
Out of this crevice I call
Only to be ignored
Pushed away from what I work toward
Soon, for myself, it's checkmate
And so I'll... I'll stand back and wait
Until the end, when it's far too late