Well,

And I haven't cried-

in awhile;

I don't want to-

Because if I start

I might not stop.

And I'll drown in a salty sea

that i couldn't part

for there is no way 

for me to change who i've become. 

So 

I've gotten myself into this hell

and I don't know how to get out. 

Foreseeably,

it was not wise

but it was fated

and so 

maybe if i cry

the tears will dull the flames

and i will just be left alone

in the darkness.