Would you care if I was gone?

Would you care if I was gone? Am I not good enough for you? I wish I had never met you then I wouldn’t have felt this piercing pain. At first I thought love was all teddy bears and rainbows, soon enough it showed me that it was a devil feeding on my sadness. It feels as though my heart was glass and was smashed to the ground, shattering into a million pieces. What about all the promises you made of being with me forever and always supporting me? Is it just a big joke?  For all the times that I thought we were meant to be. I hate how love makes me love you again and again, during the worst moments like my love a joke. But everytime I see your cold blue eyes as deep and cold as the ocean filled with the possibility that you can love me once again convince me to give you more time and stay with you. Yet I know it’s impossible. Why are you doing this to me, making me keep falling in love then tearing me apart? Still I love you. I wish I have the chance to tell you, maybe if you have felt this pain you wouldn’t be so careless about me. You only have one heart and I gave mine to you a long time ago. Love is attracting me to you, then chaining me there. Why can’t I get over you?  Love is tearing me apart yet it was the only thing holding me together. Although I hate how you are so careless about me all the time, your smile still lights up my day. Is this Love? I guess it won’t make a difference telling you this. I just have one question. Would you care if I was gone? There is no forever, everything will die sooner or later. Life is just a beautiful lie.