Wreckless

I want to destroy everything, I would like to wreck everything and pull my heart out just to make it stop breaking at the sound of his name.

I want to cut my skin off where we got our tattoos. I want to burn every place his hands have ever touched me,  i want to stab each place his lips have ever touched my skin.

I want to shoot myself in the head in order to forget the living memories of him, to forget the songs he told me about and that i loved, i love them...

I want shred him into pieces with an axe just so he knows how it feels to be vulnerable and i want him to feel the pain I've felt.

I want him to even try to imagine what I've been feeling. I want him to fucking try and imagine someone more loyal then I, who kept on fucking loving that son of a bitch.

I want him to get on his fucking knees and pray to whatever the hell he believes in, pray that one day he will be able to hear my voice again, see my eyes lighting up at the sound of one of my passions. I want him to pray that he could feel my gentle touch once more.

I just want him to want me...I just...I want to stop feeling this shit. I just want to freeze time and stop every living thing.

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- r. a. s.