You

I can’t believe you could do this
You’re everywhere
Even when I want you to be nowhere
You’re the unspoken name when I ask how people are doing
You’re the thought that crosses my mind just to torture me
You’re the person that makes me want to scream
While you also make me want to cry
You’re the reason for my complex feelings
And why I can never sleep in that room again
And why if I walk into her house I can’t guarantee I won’t break down sobbing
You’re why I want to stay away
You’re why I’ll make sure you’re not there before I come
And why I don’t want to hear your name spoken
Not even by myself
You are the reason I’m guarded
You’re the reason I find no relief in sleeping
Or waking up
I hate the way I’ve become
I used to be full of life and radiate joy
Then I met you and you stole that
You stole my light
Yet I can’t even say you stole it because I willingly gave it to you
Just as I gave you my heart
It’s not your fault you were careless with it
Just as it’s not your fault that I can’t move on