COMPASSION

Chapter 27

GOODBYE GOD

Joe is in his bedroom and the Sandra Demons Lamia Inspired won't let go. Joe has never felt so disgusted in his life. He cannot control his thoughts and Sandra can invade his mind at will. He has no defense for this woman. He is still angry at God for taking his Mother and now this beautiful irresistible evil force is dominating his mind.
 
He had no idea a woman could torture him like this. He wonders is this why some men drink? He has begged God time and time again to lift this obsession curse but no relief is in sight.
 
So now it is time to teach God a lesson for his indifference to Joe’s suffering. He has a full bottle of pills that he intends to swallow. He pours the pills into the glass of water and falls to his knees to give God one last chance to save him.
 
“Please God if you care about me and do not want to see me die I beg you send me a sign. Stop me from taking my life.”  Joe waits and only hears silence. “ Okay if you do not care I do not care.” Joe mixes the pills and takes a sip of the lethal cocktail. He puts the glass down and gets his tablet from under his bed and starts to write himself one last poem.

GOODBYE GOD                                                                 

One day I fell into a well of despair
Why God does no one care
Well I am finally at the end of my rope
For me, there is no hope

My only sin was looking at the pretty girl
Her face more beautiful than a pearl
Want, Desire, Lust
If only I could have won her trust

I asked her to release me
She smiled and stared at me
But refused to set me free
Obsessive thoughts way too deep
Mind and soul heartbreak weep

But I now know I will never have her
I fear soon I will be dancing with cadavers
I long for death eternal peace
Only then will this female obsession cease

I was taught it is wrong to take a life
The priest told me to find a wife
So this is the end
The damage I will soon do will never mend

Should I die by gun, noose, bottle or pill
Or take a leap from a high hill
Maybe God will send me a sign
Maybe a Heavenly Angel will throw me a line

Soon my suicide will fill Satan with pride
My Soul in the Lake of Fire will hide
Did Jesus ever Love me I cried
I can't go on like this

This Blonde Temptress
Robbed me of all bliss
Her beauty tormenting my soul my mind
Unholy woman kind

So I slowly put the gun to my head
Soon I will be dead
Good-Bye God
Now I am really going to blow my wad

But wait a voice said
Putting lead in your head will turn your rug red
The only thing that can save your mind and soul
Is to write your way out of this Obsession Hell Hole

God why did you put me down here
At the bottom living in fear
Why must I write of these Bastard  Evil Thoughts
The Devil tried but my soul can not be bought

I will not let the demons win
I shall not kill myself it is a sin
So now I will become a writer
Keep writing mental fighter

Even if my written words make no sense
Writing makes the mind less tense
Someday my obsession will be lighter
With Heavenly Help
My future will become brighter

So FUCK The Demons

I’m through screaming
God thank you for finally making my mental suffering go away
So I can stay here a little longer and play

And if no one ever reads my words
At least writing has made my mind
As free as a bird

 
 Joe puts his pen down and goes to sleep praying the demons will leave him alone for tonight.
 Lilith was right about Joe not having the courage to fulfill her wish.