COMPASSION

Chapter 32

Sexual Possession

Tom awakens from his deep sleep and sees Catherine is not in her coffin. Fearing she has left him he springs out of his casket and runs down to the front door.
 
Catherine yells out, “I am in the Library!”
 
She is smoking a More Cigarette and sipping a glass of Red Roses Whiskey. She is looking through Tom’s journals and tells her husband, “Sit down I want to talk to you.”
 
Tom takes a seat at his desk and fears what is coming.
 
“I have been doing a lot of thinking since I died. I was a widow for so long I got so used to making my own decisions. I knew I would die one day but was not sure if we would ever see each other again. So I find myself here and I learn you have had a girlfriend since you died. I am glad because I was always worried about you lying in the ground in your coffin. I guess you have been having a good time with this Sakura and to tell you the truth I am actually happy for you. I was r wife but I am not your Mother. I am learning life is not the same here. It is different and I don’t think the rules of Cheating and  Infidelity apply here. I am not really sure if we are still husband and wife. I don’t know what we are.”
 
Tom tells Catherine, “No one gives you an owner’s manual or hand book when you get here. Are you saying we should have an open marriage?”
 
“What I am saying is I don’t care who you Fuck!”
 
Tom is startled to hear his wife talk like this. He is not sure of what to say to Catherine. She is sitting in his chair so he takes a seat in front of his desk and stares at Catherine. He has never seen her look the way she does. He has never heard her say Fuck. He doesn’t know what to make of this situation.
 
Catherine continues, “You are right I was a slave to my children. I did everything for them and when it was my turn to die I sat in my chair watching TV and slowly drowned in my own fluids while my two darling sons slept like babies. I tried to signal them with the TV remote and raised the volume to tell them I was in trouble and neither one of My Fucking Idiot Sons woke up. If Mike was still living at home I would probably be alive today. He would have known I was in trouble and kept an eye on me. He is our only son with a brain. That is why he is an Engineer.”
 
Catherine is listening to Georgian Chanting Music and Tom asks, “Can I change this music?”
 
Catherine shouts at Tom, “Don’t you touch my Music and keep your Fucking Mouth shut when I am talking to you! I am taking now. I am tired of listening to Tommy go on about who killed his Mommy. I am tired of Joe crying at my grave for his Mommy. I am tired of all the Fucking Shit I had to put up with in my Life from my Boys, The Church coming over to my house and telling me I have to give more to God. I told the Good Lay people from Church I make One Dollar and thirty-five cents an hour as a seamstress. How much more do you want me to give God? Do you know what I have to say to the Church now? I would tell all the Priests and Nuns and even the Pope STOP BEGGING AND GET A FUCKING JOB LIKE I DID.”
 
Tom is in a state of shock and he has never heard his wife talk like this. Suddenly fear comes over him as he wonders if that woman called Lilith is possessing his wife. He walks over to Catherine and looks in her eyes and asks his wife? “Is there anybody inside you!” Tom pours water on Catherine.
 
Catherine breaks his hold and asks? “What the Hell are you talking about?  Why are you pouring water on me?”
 
“I have never heard you curse so much in my life. When I was embalming you at Manions a woman tried to possess your corpse and trick me.”
 
Catherine replies, “What woman?” She shuts off the chanting music.
 
Tom tells her “When I first saw you when you arrived you told me to come to your house and watch the boys. I was sitting at your kitchen table when the Priest was saying some words over you. A red Haired woman appeared at the table and said some things to me then she left.”
 
Catherine asks, “What did she say to you?”
 
“She was talking crazy. She told me how she hates people she hates priests she hates everybody. Then later when I was embalming you she tried to get inside your body.”
 
Catherine asks, “Why would she do that?”
 
“I don’t know but I poured Holy Water on your Body and that chased her out of your corpse. I thought the way you were talking she possessed you again so I poured Holy Water on you to see if she was in you? I have never heard Sailors talk like I just heard you talk. I had no idea you were so angry. I am the one who is always angry. You were always calm and cool even when we were fighting I was so proud you didn’t take any shit from me or anyone.”
 
“Tom what I am saying is you were right. I did spend too much time on the boys and I neglected you. I don’t agree I was the reason for your death. I am no longer the devoted loving wife. I am no longer the suffering Mother to ungrateful sons. From this day on I am going to put myself first. I am not going to worry if my husband is faithful to me. I am not going to worry about our sons. I thought I would help Joe become a writer but what I have read of his writing he is totally Fucked Up. His words are I can’t really describe his writing. It’s a waste of paper and pencils.”
 
Tom suggests, “If Joe is a lousy writer and all he writes is jibberish you should make him a Poet. Any Fucking Idiot can be a Poet. You don’t even have to rhyme your words. The more stupid the writing is the better the poem.”
 
Catherine replies, “I am not going to worry myself to Death again. I died once that is enough. I am going back to sleep. Put on any music you want. I am exhausted.
 
Tom leaves the house for Maxie’s bar. He pulls into the parking lot and heads inside. There are not many people in the bar but Tom sees three of his shipmates from The USS Randolph. The three men are less than twenty years old and died when Hiko’s plane exploded the fuel drums on deck. All three men burned to death and have been angry at God since they arrived in 1944. They refuse to change their appearance and still wear the burnt US Navy Seaman Uniform they died in. They have never come to terms with their death but are proud Tom Havard made it through the war and lasted eight years into his marriage before he died. The trio sit in the dark so the patrons cannot see their ghastly burnt faces and bodies. These men are Tom’s shipmates and he considers them Brothers for Eternity. He goes over to their table and tells them about his wife’s arrival.
 
“Hi, Guys! I got some news for you. My wife showed up and she is staying with me. All three men raise their glasses of beer and Brian asks Tom, “What is it like to live with a woman?”
 
Tom replies, “It is nice to have a companion. I can see she is not the same woman that buried me. She is a lot more independent and speaks her mind. There is no holding her back now. She also just told me to Shut The Fuck!”
 
Brian replies, “A woman talks like that?”
 
Tom answers, “I thought the same thing. I poured some Holy Water to make sure she wasn’t possessed by some Demon or Devil.”
 
Kevin the second sailor replies, “Possession of a Soul is not common. It is a lot easier for a soul to possess a living person. Soul to Soul possession is not the right frequency.”
 
Tom agrees, “That is what I thought. Have you guys given any more thought of moving on with your life? Changing your appearance and outlook on life will make it easier for you to possess a like frequency than all three of you guys can finally have sex with a woman. I kind of feel funny when all three of you ask me what pussy feels like. It is time you guys got laid.”
 
Brian replies, “That is easy for you to say, Tom. You did not die a virgin. All three of us intended to have sex with our girlfriends after the war. It’s too late now. Does your wife know about your Japanese girlfriend?”
 
Tom replies, “I told her. I told her Sakura and I just had sex at The Raddison Hotel. We possessed the same frequency couple and had great sex. That is what all three of you guys need.”
 
Kevin tells Tom, “You did not have sex with Sakura. The two of you raped an innocent couple! You committed a sin.”
 
Tom replies, “Many people don’t think sexual possession of a person is rape. We just went along for the ride.”
 
Kevin replies, “Many people do think it is rape.”
 
Tom gets up from the table, “Well it was good seeing you guys again. I hope you think about what I said about moving forward. You can’t spend eternity being angry at God for ending your lives on our ship.”
 
Tom looks at the third sailor who hasn’t said a word. His name is Ed and he hasn’t accepted his death like the other two sailors but he is serious denial. He is crying while drinking his beer.
 
Tom asks Ed, ”Did you have your dream again?”
 
Ed tells Tom, “Some of the guys say the Japanese are going to hit us hard tomorrow. I had the same dream last night I always have. I am screaming and burning to death.  I am afraid I am going to die tomorrow and God is telling me I am going to burn to Death. I have to get off this ship! I don’t want to Die!”
 
“Ed I told you to have write down your worst fears on paper then have a talk with God. Ask him anything you want. Tell him what you wrote. He will give you the answers you are looking for.”
 
Ed grabs Tom, “I have been asking God for Help. I begged him to take get me off the ship. I told him I don’t want to Die!”
 
Tom asks, “What did God tell you?”
 
“He is saying nothing to me. That is why I come here. When I go my bunk to rest I have the same dream about the fire. Tom you, got to help me. What should I do? I will go Mad if these dreams don’t stop!”
 
Tom tells Ed, “I have told you before you are thinking too much about dying. You have to put something in your head that makes you feel good. You have to start listening to music. It will make you feel better. Who is your favorite singer?”
 
Ed replies, “I don’t have one. We never listened to music in our house when I was growing up.”
 
Ed your parents are German. Germans are smart people. If you don’t like the music you hear get your own instruments and play them. Make your own music.”
 
“Tom I don’t know how to play any instruments.”
 
Tom tells Ed, “It doesn’t matter. Go down to the pawn shop and get a set of drums. Take them back to the ship and bang the shit out of them. If you can’t find a girl to bang get a set of drums and bang the shit out of them. Trust me it will make you feel better and you may not dream so much about the fire and dying.”
 
Ed steps back, “You have been telling me this for years and I have never listened to you. I think this time I will listen to you. I will get those drums. Thanks, Tom.”
 
“Ed just remember one thing. God told me to tell you about the drums.”
 
Ed looks at Tom, “You spoke to God? Have you seen him?”
 
Tom replies, “No I haven’t seen him but as God is my witness he did tell me to tell you to get the drums. So don’t say God is not listening to  you or helping you.”
 
Ed with tears in his eyes embraces his spiritual brother, “Thanks, Tom.”

Tom tells the trio of ship mates, "Listen I am telling all three of you to stop being angry at God. I told you about reading Tesla and Energy, Frequency Levels. When you are angry and won't forgive you are at a low level of energy. Negative, Dark, Evil thought are down at these lower levels. When you lose your anger and learn to forgive you immediately rise in Energy and you are at a higher Frequency and positive things will happen. Don't wait for God to make this happen you have to do it yourself. Every person living or dead no matter what God you worship or what you believe don't hate someone else for your misery. Find a way to get your mind right and that starts with Loving yourself. If you love yourself then you realize if you love your fellow brother and sister no matter who they are or what religion you will never have evil dreams or be afraid. I told you guys you got to start reading this Tesla Guy on the Theory of Energy. He has to be sent by some God because he was trying to explain everything to us and no one would listen to him. Now I hear he is booked up for the next thousand years of all the dead people waiting to ask him what comes next. I can't believe they don't teach us about this inventor in school. Well, that is enough from me. Remember to think positive and we have the annual Randolph Ship Reunion. I better see you guys there.I got to go see the wife. Bye."