4 1/2 years

I've loved you 39,420 hours
And for 8,760 you have the same
But you and I desentegrated in 24
Love didn't save us
You rolled out your laundry list of reasons not to love me anymore
Like I needed the incentive
For you I couldn't care
But for 39,420 hours I asked you to be there
You couldn't be bothered
I'm supposed to be upset because I betrayed you.
I gave away your love and attention
Isn't everything always yours?
Always your way.. you choose how to love me
When..Where...and how
And for 8,760 hours you were a real man
Opposed to the child you are now
You are what I love to call a coward
You can awake my heart enough to set it ablaze
And set your world on fire,
I dare you.
I have wrapped myself in your words,
Clothed in your anger
And still I stand
Unbroken, in your eyes I shouldn't be
But I won't miss the ways you held me
I could feel emptiness before you even touched me
I could sPeak to you for hours about our Plans after we would Part
hell you planned my broken heart
And then laid the Pieces perfectly
Telling me Over and over
Don't blame yourself.
I dO. I blame myself for 39,420 hOUrs Of wasted time
Wasted moments, and unforgivable ways of loving you.
And I won't sPend another minute.