8 YEARS LATER

"Everything changes and everything passes
Just do what you think you should do"
This quote stays with me every single time I am reminded of you
At 13 I told myself that life will get so much worse
Almost as if I was living under a dark, wicked curse.
I was living a lie, telling people I was okay when really I wanted to die
I'm left with marks upon my body when I wanted to show my pain
Now looking back I know that I was never to blame.

Look what you did
To your own kid, you broke me mum
You left my life so broken and so freakin' numb.
Every single day I would wish my life away, because what was the point?
My only time with you was on restricted hours with guards watching my every move
They were the only memories that we actually share
That was probably the only time you had to spare.
What sort of mum walks out of their kids lives
Then comes back 8 years later like everything is 'alright'.

Last year I turned 16 and for me that was the best milestone in my life
Everything changes and everything passes
I've turned out alright, I express my pain through writing and it's going pretty well
But these poems have some sort of theme I don't know if you can tell
But they are based upon a broken little girl who was shown the worst of the world at such a young age
But that was just one chapter, today is a whole new page.
The poems I write are mainly about you
You caused me so much pain, you left me thinking for years I was to blame
I don't know if you knew, but I do
I am left broken because of you.