Addict Life

Addiction, a new affliction. Struggling and stuck left on my back like a beetle, happiness can be found in a pill or better yet a needle. I only know that I love you even if you begin to drown in this ocean too. You don’t need to see death this soon. I just wanna get high but don’t know if I’m ready to say goodbye. Let me enjoy this lions roar, yet abused and used like a whore. Fuck this feeling of regret, there are things you will never get. You don’t know where I’ve been, what I’ve seen, and what I’ve done. You know nothing of this battle in my mind. The only trustworthy ones, are one of a kind. Commit and submit. Turn in your name, for a drug that makes you insane. Reality is just going to lead to another fatality. I’m not ready to wake up every morning and get going, hoping these withdrawals aren’t showing. I’m falling and you’re not noticing. You don’t see how you’re killing me. Leave me now but I can’t hurt you, please tell me what life is, where happiness is, where to go and what to do. I have only a voice of experience sealed in fucked up memories of abuse and drug misuse. Just let me sink, you don’t know about me, you don’t even think. Blame everyone but yourself, play this losing game. I’m going to end this shit, left with this last bit; this monster inside is taking over, I lost the idea of being sober.