Anxiety

Why am I like this

i get anxiety in situations where people are only there to love and care for me, while all I can do is run to an alley and have tears flooding my eyes, streaming down my face wrecking my makeup. 

I get anxious talking to people I'm supposed to be close to yet I feel like they're all on earth and I'm somewhere on the moon. So unbelonged. So unimportant. Non existent. Just not there.