BLAMES

I keep sobbing, locking every pains in my heart.
Why you target me? I'm human not dart!
I'm done with those blames'
I'm not anymore dumb and lame.

I suffocate thinking about this when I'm alone,
look what you all made me!
What I'm today I wonder am I real or a puppet clone?
Now I'm savage, brutal, not like that girl who took the blames on knee.

You don't realize how toxic a word can be;
I recall those flashbacks of them, he and she.
I had lost my patience to hold those blames,
I'm sorry for backfires I gave for all people's lame.

I'm lost, I'm confused and hurt at the same time;
taking every blame still feels like crimes.
I'm trying to let go;
but every time, my wounds says me "no".

Oh good God please help me,
help me to fight myself and let all problems flee.
Show me a way to solve myself,
It's a never ending quest with me, so please help.

I'm not a actor or singer but my situations made me;
just to set myself all free.
my close people burn those bridges and make me sad;
still I promise I'll win in this life to my friends, sisters, mom and dad,
just hold me tight sometimes I need it when I'm mad.