But Today
I didn't cry
Today I cried but not as much as yesterday.
I looked for you in the same places we've been before in hopes you'd come up from behind me and say," SURPRISE!" but I know that's impossible. Instead I just re-played old memories in my head for hours because that was the only place I ever got to see you again and the only place that felt more like home...you're home. I dont think i'll ever understand why you and not me? Its like you beat me to it and now I dont have a choice but to live for the both of us. I used to think you were greedy and selfish for leaving me behind in this hell but then I thought.. I was going to leave you too..we're both the same.
Today I found myself thinking about how the sun doesn't set the same, and how the moon isn't as bright as I thought, and how the food kind of taste like cardboard.The days seem so long and restless and I no longer feel young and pretty.
Today I cried but not as much as yesterday.
I'm still trying to figure out how to function, but its hard when your not right next to me. The bed feels so much bigger now and before I thought it wasn't big enough for the both of us. I wore your clothes today because something about taking your sweaters always gave me comfort. It still smells like you, and im afraid to wash it. I hope you dont think I'm a creep, sorry in advance.
Today I cried but not as much as yesterday.
Today I finally got out of bed without a struggle and took a shower which was something I couldn't do in weeks. Today The food didn't taste like cardboard, and I put away your sweater. My bed is stil made for two....just not you.
Today I didn't cry.
It almost feels like you died but your alive living life with someone else you decided to spend the rest of your life with...and to me that's worse then dying.............................
But today I didn't cry.
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Respect!!!! I love this one so much, a poem of true strength and moving on. This line resonated with me the most;
I mean, what can I say. (and sorry for self-promoting here) I am exactly the same but with my childhood friends. People in primary school used to be heaps more forgiving than adults, fistfight, argue, cheat on your best mate, yes we were stupid, but we all forgave each other in the end. It was more like a family. These days, one wrong move and you're ostracised and you have one choice, face the music or run. And I have always been a runner. Look, sorry for making this all about me.
My point is, you`ll always receive support with these types of work, from me and all the other awesome posts on here. So thank you for sharing. For me, it brought up some emotion-provoking topics.
Loved it.
Yeah I agree I wanted to write a poem more of a story basically about this women whose in a terrible relationship. Her bf tells her that she can’t leave him because she’ll never find anyone as good as him and eventually she believes it. She believes it so much that she starts to think that she can’t live without him. Eventually he ends up cheating on her and leaves her for someone else. It’s like she’s in mourning after the separation and she craves him because she wants him. Later she realizes that she just because she wants him...it doesn’t mean she needs him. She starts to realize her worth and she mentally decided to let him go. It still hurts her tho but accepted it kind of like when someone dies.
But I mean I think everyone can relate to something even if it is in their own ways. I wanted to put a twist onto the poem having people think this person they loved committed suicide or something just to make it different then most of my writings.
I’m glad that in ways it was relatable to your own experiences in life even with a twist. It’s okay to make all about you, you thought it was relatable and that’s the point.
Hope you have a blessed day :)
Touching and heartfelt ...good write x
Thank you!!
I LOVE this! Very well done! 👏👏👏 x
Thank you!
Aww this is so well expressed, sweetly appealing, i smiled at the surprise line, i was esp admiring the moon sun stanza how a poignant person's world feels tasteless and dull. Kudos!!!
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Aw thank you and yes I shall :)!