CAPTIVATED

The blood that ran through my veins went cold
My heart went as dark as coal
I felt like my happiness and hope
Was sucked into some sort of black hole
I was captivated by darkness, still reliving the past
Not knowing who will stay, not knowing who will last
My trust was broken by someone who was supposed to be there
Someone who was supposed to nurture me
Someone who was supposed to care
I'm not the little girl you left on the doorstep at 3 years old
I'm a broken 16 year old, who wished her mother would hold her
Tell her she would be okay
Make all the pain and misery go away
But you can't because you're the reason
I believed I had no purpose
Try living in my shoes thinking that you're worthless
The nothingness made my soul numb
The person I was supposed to trust yet she left
Was my 'mum'