A day without me

Lets Go back to the start so we can begin
To unravel the riddles riddled within
When scars were just scribbles scribbled by children 
and the heart only beat to keep the deep dreams in
back when i was enthralled to be called even 
before my mind was in time to my rapid breathing
as a young adolescents incessant teething 
I grew wisdom through pain drain the brain from feeling 

and I can hear its call 
A short drop between my four walls 
a note addressed only to you 
about how I couldn't see it through
I imagin the look in your eyes at the  pain I felt
And because of that look I save myself.

Iv surpassed the past it passed by so fast 
Il surpress  the rest put to the test it won't last
il confess the best of this mess was still the worst iv had
at times you shine and I pine as you crash
my mind it blinds the fine details of your craft 
Now your under my spell as I repell from It's blast
as a young woman I succumb to this repast
sink my teeth into your skin and tear away as you ask

I can hear it's call 
A short drop between my four walls 
a note addressed only to you 
about how I couldn't see it through
I imagin the look in your eyes at the  pain I felt
And because of that look I save myself.

I'm falling to pieces
And I don't want to be this
I call myself a realist 
this reality is dreamless 
I Thought I was seamless
now I'm tearing and I deal less
A little everyday I'm thread bear 
And I breath less 
lose heart beats on the way
to my grave, your my seamstress
stitch your words into my skin
Render my shroud meaningless
There is only one truth 
it's you and I believe this
things will never be the same
without the pain of this bliss

Can you hear it's call 
A short drop between my four walls 
a note addressed only to you 
about how I couldn't see it through
I imagin the look in your eyes at the  pain I felt
And because of that look I save myself.