FAIRY TALES

What sort of mum leaves their child numb
Or makes them feel like they're to blame
You made my life feel like it shouldn't exist
I just wanted you to love me 
Like all of these demons seem to do
Mum, I needed you.

Trust is fiction 
I don't believe in fairy tails anymore
The pain you caused hit right down to the core
You broke my heart 
You tore my soul
Like all the happiness I had left in me 
Got sucked into a black hole
Full of darkness
Struggling to see any kind of light 
I'm sat up thinking where i went wrong
Day and night.

How at 3 couldn't you love me
What did i do
Mum, I needed you
People told me i was 'strong'
Yet I felt absolutely weak
People messed with my head
I listened to every hurtful thing they said
Mum, I needed you.

I started to get my life together at 16 
I started to piece together everything I had seen
I was doing well
I fell, and I fell
But I always got back up 
Even when my mind had enough 
Mum, I don't need you after all
You were never there to pick me back up when I would fall
You let go of my hand 
Part of me will never understand 
Why you did that 
It's something I will never forget 
But I know it won't be me living in regret.

Mum, I never truly needed you.