I found myself

I don’t know what hurts more to be pushed away or for two humans to suddenly become strangers? I know we agreed that we wanted things to be different this year..but I didn’t know you were leaving me behind.

Am I selfish to feel so alone? I deleted people too but I didn’t know you would delete me too. Maybe I’m just jealous because I never got to travel but maybe you think you’re better.

I know that nothing lasts forever but I thought we would. I feel like I don’t know you anymore but atleast I know myself. I thought that you would have desire to come visit but ..I guess not.

I hope that you find yourself out there in a city full of plastic and over priced drinks. I know you hate where you came from but I hope you never forget. I hope you find yourself because here you never did.

I don’t know what hurts more to be pushed away? Or for two humans to become strangers? Whatever the case maybe atleast I know I found myself while you continue to look.