MEMOIR OF MISERY

I was once told the world would be
a better place without me.

Unfortunately...
I believed
those wretched words
which cut me deep.

With each and every tear 
that drops upon this page
An end seems clear
Ignoring fear
I soon succumb to rage.

So 'FUKIN' sad...!
So 'FUKIN' mad...!

Dismal doesn't describe how bad
being alive feels right now
It's worse than any words allow.

Pain now exuding
beyond a fathomable force
sending my entire being
crooked and off course.

I can't stop crying
I'm trying
I want to leave
I'm lying

Because the hardest part for me

Is dying...

Carey Milton